abouttahblow.
POSTED AT 10:34 PM

cola

gwarsh. i haven't written anything here in awhile haven't i?.. well .. alot has changed and guess what?.. she's NOT my bestfriend anymore.. ohwell. why bother with past right?... but how come its bothering me. ack. hmm.. i finally won a competition - 2nd singles in pasa-prisa..  hope i can do better in the regionals... pleasee??.. hmm.. i really miss HIM. all of the HIMS. but the M the most i guess.. cuz D's changed so much but i guess i never really knew him.. i don't think i'll ever fix anything. the world has such a weird way of balance.. you're so perfectly happy yesterday.. and then you sulk your hair off today.. and guess what?.. you become insane the day after.. hhaha. right. that's what's happening to me.. i don't know what's gotten into me.. i mean i've been reaal emotional lately and everything seems to be such a big deal.. or maybe i just can't really handle that much.. i mean.. i know we might be moving but.. i dunno.. there's just something i'm totally annoyed about.. i guess.. hmm.. waiit.. i know what it is.. -- PRESSURE. yeah. that's what's gotten me drowning in a sea of loneliness. uh huh. i guess the "i'm-not-good-enough" days are coming again.. maybe because i have so much.. or lost so much.. i dunno.. as i said.. balance is TOTALLY present nowadays.. its automatic.. you lose a friend, gain an enemy..... flunk a test, ace a quiz.. you know what i mean.. hmm.. maybe it's god's way of keeping me sane and human.. i mean.. what could POSSIBLY happen to me if everything was blissful and great or if everything was unfortunate and weary. ACK.so AWFUL.  so yeah.. i guess it's fair.. maybe i'm just too busy to think nowadays.. so this is good... what im doing.. yeah.. i guess so.. right?.. hmm.. let's see.. i've also been creating

E-A-R-R-I-N-G-S

lately.. and people have started buying but the problem is.. i don't really have the time to sell it to them.. even if they've begged me.. cuz i haven't got the time to buy materials.. so.. here.. if you're interested. they're one-of-a-kind and cheap. what else could u ask for? ------ just post sumthing on my taggie.. it'll probably be next year.. when school starts until this is fully operarational.. especially with school and tennis... i don't want to do something and not continue it.. as i sometimes do.. i want this to WORK.. so i need to make a moundful .... well.. at least a good number.. of pairs to sell before i start.. so demand doesn't decrease.. anyway.. setting aside business.. let's move on to theatrics.. shall we?... PROM time is coming up..!! and hey.. i still have no date.. guess who i have in mind??.. .ahaha.. yeaaaah.. hope he agrees.. but.. whatever. know what.. i think i gotta run for now.. i feel like a creative streak is coming.. need to write my story... regarding ela... hehheehehe.! buhye

Reading: the da vinci code (i know..i'm just reading it NOW)
Listening to: my humps - BEP
Watching: starsky and hutch
Feeling: blaccghaktilarfgblaksb rf